Nailed!

Some time ago it was a prick,
Then it was a slash,
This morning it was a nail
in my own coffin.

A hundred times over
and a hundred times more,
Each time it gets heavier.
It hurts to the core.

Mind over matters,
matters over heart.
Take a deep breath,
to know where to start.


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Now playing: once-falling slowly
via FoxyTunes

*WinkWink*

Can you figure which one is my favourite birthday wish? (^_^)
Oops, I love all the birthday wishes I received on FB, but this one has 'sentimental' value :p Okayy, change that to 'historical' value!

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Now playing: The Fray - Look After You
via FoxyTunes

Shut

Like an ornament that
Everybody wants
In a home,
glitters and beckons.
to touch and caress -
a lost and confused soul.

If I have the answer
I would have present it
for you,
in a jewelery box.
I would wait until Venus is on the same page as Mars.

"But-"
I smile
"It's already written"
I nod

Copyright © 2011

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Now playing: Tatu - All About Us
via FoxyTunes

Unperturbed

Unperturbed

You let that song play

Until I realize what it means

Until I hear the voice that runs

Peace in my soul

Will a drought ever drain this drizzling tranquility?

Will a storm ever shatter this summer hope?

We continue to wonder, knowing

With faith to accept

HIS decree

That it is you, that it is I, that it is us

Copyright © 2010

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Now playing: Meet Uncle Hussein - Pari-pari Bawah Angin
via FoxyTunes

Natrah Musical Theatre

Went to watch Natrah with RS & her friends at IB last 27 Nov. We got lost a bit & traffic was quite bad, due to MAHA I supposed. Well, I don't really have the time to narrate it all here. So here's a snippet of my conversation with a friend on it.

nd (12/7/2010 4:31:45 PM): how natrah???
nd (12/7/2010 4:31:59 PM): ngan kontroversi erma n fatini...
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:32:20 PM): aiseh, it was only 2 hours teater
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:32:31 PM): i baru sedar dat its actually musical teater
nd (12/7/2010 4:32:32 PM): 2 hours???
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:32:37 PM): so, its not heavy 2 me
nd (12/7/2010 4:32:41 PM): mmg musikal...
nd (12/7/2010 4:32:45 PM): ok...
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:32:50 PM): except sofia jane performance kot...superb!
nd (12/7/2010 4:33:09 PM): she is a talented beauty...
nd (12/7/2010 4:33:16 PM): tak boleh kalah..
nd (12/7/2010 4:33:18 PM): maya???
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:33:29 PM): 2 jam mmg x layak utk cite the story fr whole p.o.v
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:34:11 PM): maya biase je 2 me, hehe...bolehla. her part x mendalam sgt emosi as sofia jane's monologues
nd (12/7/2010 4:34:28 PM): sofia jane acted as wat???
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:34:37 PM): so kirenye jawapan erma tu ade logiknye for a 2 hour musical teater
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:35:02 PM): she jadi natrah yg 70+ y/o
nd (12/7/2010 4:35:11 PM): ok...
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:35:15 PM): sgt menjadi suare, gerak geri n emosinye
nd (12/7/2010 4:35:27 PM): she cud sing???
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:36:31 PM): sofia x nyanyi. die bermonologue aje..+ screaming of her mournful emotional conflict time 2 time
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:36:56 PM): yg paling menarik si remy kot
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:37:25 PM): bab yg die menari hindustan. ble nampak yg die blushing malu coz die x pernah buat mcm tu kt tv
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:37:38 PM): everyone claps when he dance
nd (12/7/2010 4:38:04 PM): ayoyo...
nd (12/7/2010 4:38:16 PM): ada gak dancing ala2 hidustani???
nd (12/7/2010 4:38:21 PM): apa perkaitannya???
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:38:39 PM): itulah..so it depicts the 'light'ness of d teater
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:39:01 PM): scene utk pasangan memadu kasih la tu
nd (12/7/2010 4:39:32 PM): ok...
nd (12/7/2010 4:40:06 PM): tapi agak2 sesuai tak???
nd (12/7/2010 4:40:15 PM): am getting critical a bit..
nd (12/7/2010 4:40:18 PM): sori..
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:40:38 PM): well, its better hindustani dancing than touching each other here n there
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:41:02 PM): n its a good spot for humour injection
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:41:17 PM): except dat i didnt expect it 2 b musical realy
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:41:43 PM): i really thot twas serious teater. tp xpelah, i tersalah bace in paper kot
nd (12/7/2010 4:41:52 PM): hihihi...
nd (12/7/2010 4:42:19 PM): akak baru baca few pages of natrah book by fatini...
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:42:24 PM): maya pandai sesuaikan watak remaje 1 thn
nd (12/7/2010 4:42:28 PM): bukunya tebal sis...
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:42:33 PM): i mean 13 thn
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:42:52 PM): yeah, seen d book during book fair tp x beli pun. beli utk kwn je
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:42:56 PM): how much u buy?
nd (12/7/2010 4:43:14 PM): mansor adabi tuh orgnya intelektual, sopan, org klate..
nd (12/7/2010 4:43:27 PM): 60 sumhin..
nd (12/7/2010 4:43:41 PM): sumthin
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:43:48 PM): yep. i think during d book fair rm68
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:44:11 PM): yea, sikap tu mmg terserlah jugak in Remy's act
nd (12/7/2010 4:44:14 PM): ader konflict of interest...
nd (12/7/2010 4:44:24 PM): erma org seni..wat muzikal..
nd (12/7/2010 4:44:32 PM): fatini..akademik...
nd (12/7/2010 4:44:43 PM): so..susah sikit nak masuk kpala..
nd (12/7/2010 4:45:02 PM): takperlah...
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:45:12 PM): aka ni kat opis ke umah?
aliflamwaunga (12/7/2010 4:45:16 PM): bkn cuti ka 2day?
nd (12/7/2010 4:45:23 PM): mungkin fatini perlu bekerjasama nagn produksi lain untuk wat teater yg berat..
nd (12/7/2010 4:45:28 PM): opis...
nd (12/7/2010 4:45:36 PM): uiksss...


p/s: a bit disturbed with;

1. seeing too many blondes & highlights during the kampung people scenes
2. incomplete jawi calligraphy of the letter 'sin' on the banners (huruf 'sin' dalam tulisan jawi yang tak cukup 'rumah' pada beberapa kain rentang demonstrasi kes Natrah)
   
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   Now playing: Aizat - Fikirlah
   via FoxyTunes
   

Sex education: Give right info

Sex education: Give right info

Alhamdulillah...managed to work my brains out till 3am for this. I hope the tulah does not stay with me after this!?

Err...Now What?

I say....I was having this outpouring, overflowing of emotions and feeling I was at my best to pour my heart out here in words - as Wordsworth would have it - when suddenly, now, it's G O N E .

*poof* Just like that. With one SMS, it's gone... it is supposed to be something good...but not good for my WordsSpun portfolio here :P
It's been neglected far too long...aiyaa

Outpouring of emotion should be of any kind, good or bad...I should be able to do so anyhow now. But I guess the change is too sudden...arghh...I'm stuck here...

Oh, does that mean everything in my WordsSpun is of negative emos? O'oh...it's check & balance time then.

On second thought, I better get back to my assignment! (Arghh)


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Now playing: Shane Ward - No Promises
via FoxyTunes

Killing her softly with my BM mimic

rs (9/23/2010 9:55:25 PM): darl
rs (9/23/2010 9:55:27 PM): salam
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:56:12 PM): wsalam
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:56:39 PM): wahai cik rs..apakah perkhabaran anda dari sana?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:56:45 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 9:57:01 PM): stop it u
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:57:14 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 9:57:27 PM): u read too much of tuah
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:57:43 PM):
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:57:53 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 9:58:38 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 9:58:45 PM): sta pesan lagi
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:58:48 PM): korg ade kuih raye lg tak?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:59:02 PM): ooo...hm...apsal ek diorg x reply my gmail.,..
rs (9/23/2010 9:59:08 PM): saudari masih ada 6 mute dan 6 dict
rs (9/23/2010 9:59:09 PM): ada mau?
rs (9/23/2010 9:59:19 PM): owh
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:59:24 PM): pdhal gmail tu diorg sure open 2 receive other ubi docs
rs (9/23/2010 9:59:28 PM): i dont think they cek kot their mail
rs (9/23/2010 9:59:28 PM): as usual
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 9:59:48 PM): abih xkan diorg x receive d form from u mcm dulu?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:00:11 PM): ke STA nk i masukkan dlm akaun die dulu?
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:15 PM): nin
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:15 PM): tak semua org bukak mail tu
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:15 PM): haaaa
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:21 PM): they prefer to copy it from the pc unit
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:00:28 PM): laa, ye ke? cheh..
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:33 PM): sebabkan kak sarah tanye
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:00:34 PM): hehe...komp tu jugak yg berjasa ek
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:40 PM): all the lect tu
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:40 PM): diaorg kata
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:45 PM): tade info pun
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:00:57 PM): chett!
rs (9/23/2010 10:00:59 PM): u call them up ke sms ke
rs (9/23/2010 10:01:21 PM): sabo sabo
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:01:30 PM): ok, next step i haf2 sms 1st i guess
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:01:38 PM): hehe...ok...sabo nih
rs (9/23/2010 10:04:01 PM): stop listening to the song
rs (9/23/2010 10:04:01 PM): g buat keje
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:04:36 PM):
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:04:59 PM): song from my last movie
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:05:01 PM): with u
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:05:07 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:05:38 PM): wat did we watch?
rs (9/23/2010 10:05:47 PM): the ghost movie?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:05:53 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:06:43 PM): hehehe
rs (9/23/2010 10:07:14 PM): betul la
rs (9/23/2010 10:07:14 PM): dgn brenda
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:07:59 PM): i think theres a newer one
rs (9/23/2010 10:12:54 PM): like...?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:13:06 PM):
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:13:20 PM): sumthng dat has ring n dragon
rs (9/23/2010 10:13:26 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:13:44 PM): oooo
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:13:51 PM): kehkeh
rs (9/23/2010 10:13:51 PM): owh
rs (9/23/2010 10:13:57 PM): hehehe
rs (9/23/2010 10:14:09 PM): kita g mcd aft that?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:15:40 PM): yea ate d pineapple sundae, so sweet it kud kill me
rs (9/23/2010 10:16:56 PM): come to mama
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:17:38 PM): hehe...dat wud haf2 wait abit
rs (9/23/2010 10:17:58 PM): tuhle
rs (9/23/2010 10:18:04 PM): i go back pun lately ni every wkend
rs (9/23/2010 10:18:31 PM): wdg, engment, aqiqah
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:20:06 PM): uih...i pun ade open hse invtatn weekend ni fr classmates...punyela jauh kt kota damansara sane...xtau gak if nk p or not...even in class 2day a fren comment that even we study partime, mcm kj fulltime gak bznye
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:20:21 PM): eh, study fultime
rs (9/23/2010 10:20:35 PM): tu le kan
rs (9/23/2010 10:20:40 PM): i thnk maybe bcoz of ur cos pun
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:21:04 PM): yea, at least its a different 'air' anyway
rs (9/23/2010 10:30:20 PM): i've just packed a dozen of bj kurung
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:30:55 PM): huh? for the aqiqah, kenduri thing?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:31:02 PM): ooo....i know
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:31:16 PM): putting away the 'old' size???
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:31:21 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:31:40 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:31:51 PM): yup
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:32:18 PM): abih tu ade same amount of replacement tak?
rs (9/23/2010 10:32:41 PM): tak
rs (9/23/2010 10:33:10 PM): am pau-ing my mom's je
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:33:32 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:34:30 PM): she has countless
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:34:53 PM): hehe...okla gitu..nasib baik ble use her size
rs (9/23/2010 10:35:08 PM): tuhle
rs (9/23/2010 10:35:47 PM): i am single, 32 equals to mom, 66 opah to 10 cucus
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:37:07 PM): ape tu kak?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:38:04 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:38:23 PM): haiya u lah
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:38:27 PM): hehe
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:38:37 PM): u lost me at 32
rs (9/23/2010 10:39:47 PM): saya masih bujang berumur 32 tahun sama saiz dgn ibu yg berumur 66 thn dan merupakan opah kepada 10 orang cucu
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:40:22 PM): kuikuikui
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:40:32 PM): bole masuk status kat FB tuh!
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:40:53 PM): sangat menarik dan tertarik & da bomb
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:41:03 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:41:47 PM): kamu ini
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:41:49 PM): tp u lost me too at 'dan merupakan...
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:42:11 PM): shudnt it be 'yg juga merupakan...'?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:42:27 PM): else u r alredy an opah too
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:42:32 PM):
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:42:42 PM): eish, kamu ini...
rs (9/23/2010 10:44:05 PM): syhhhh
rs (9/23/2010 10:44:15 PM): sy malas menaip
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:44:26 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:46:34 PM): kamu cuti sem bile?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:46:55 PM): entahlah. sukar utk mengingat tarikh kala ini
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:47:44 PM): tapi kemungkinan dalam hujung November
rs (9/23/2010 10:47:51 PM): anda mahu komen di fb? silakan...
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:48:10 PM): uih, pucuk dicita ulam mendatang!
rs (9/23/2010 10:48:12 PM): berkemungkinan
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:48:14 PM): tunggu ya
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:51:09 PM): talian jalur lebar ku ini agak kurg memuaskan kala ini
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:51:26 PM): entah berpeluang atau tidak aku menunaikan undangan mu itu
rs (9/23/2010 10:51:51 PM): aarghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
rsn (9/23/2010 10:51:51 PM): u're killing me
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:51:58 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:52:03 PM): sudahku bilang
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:52:07 PM): i feel like killing myself too!
rs (9/23/2010 10:53:48 PM): erm
rs (9/23/2010 10:53:59 PM): just dont commit suicide sudah
rs (9/23/2010 10:54:09 PM): nanti kami kena diinterrogate oleh pak polisi
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 10:54:18 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 10:58:00 PM): i feel like eating
rs (9/23/2010 10:58:00 PM): guava
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:00:00 PM): adela tu guava kt umah ye
rs (9/23/2010 11:01:26 PM): tade
rs (9/23/2010 11:01:26 PM): ilek
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:02:21 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 11:02:52 PM): kenapa kamu jelir lidah kepada sy?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:03:18 PM): kalau benda itu sudah tiada, usah dibicarakan...
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:03:37 PM): hanya mengundang kegundahan
rs (9/23/2010 11:04:05 PM): jika begitu firasat saudari
rs (9/23/2010 11:04:05 PM): sy rela
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:04:14 PM):
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:04:27 PM): kasihan...
rs (9/23/2010 11:04:52 PM): keje tade ke ni
rs (9/23/2010 11:05:06 PM): ke wat r u doing?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:05:09 PM): ade. tp mcm ni la lps kelas seharian...melayan letih
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:05:43 PM): i just hope i cn b focused 2moro onwards to prepare for nextweek
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:06:16 PM): funny today sorg classmate present on 'Grammar' in penerbitan buku
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:06:51 PM): the word 'boring' came up at least 3x from her own outh while presenting
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:06:56 PM): mouth
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:07:30 PM): and she apologised rite from d beginning "maaf la ye kalo boring"
rs (9/23/2010 11:08:03 PM): boring ke tak?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:08:17 PM): i was really paying attention tau
rs (9/23/2010 11:08:52 PM): as usual
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:09:04 PM): juz dissapponted she juz gave definition n after each part, she'd say "contoh sila lihat dlm buku teks ni ye"
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:09:31 PM): the contoh wud really help ignite people's memory of what is it she really explain abt actlt
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:09:38 PM): actly
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:10:44 PM): so, sesi itu berakhir begitu shj...dgn kedengarannye "feels like being in english class "
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:10:53 PM): drpd seseorg
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:11:59 PM): hehe..i paid attention coz i pun bukannya ingat psl Parts of speech yg diterangkan tu
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:12:06 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 11:12:20 PM): i trust u
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:25:04 PM): i feel like posting 'this' on me blog
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:25:10 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 11:25:39 PM): silakan
rs (9/23/2010 11:25:50 PM): sy menanti
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:26:20 PM): hehe...tp seblm itu, bersamalah kita menanti kelancaran jalur lebar ku ini
rs (9/23/2010 11:27:55 PM): bilakah itu
rs (9/23/2010 11:27:55 PM): sudahku bilang
rs (9/23/2010 11:28:03 PM): sila berpindah
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:28:29 PM): oh ya, alahai...entahlah, gusar juga aku dibuatnya
rs (9/23/2010 11:29:40 PM): apakah gerangan gusar di hati adinda
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:30:07 PM): sudah tentula si jalur lebar itu..aduyyai
rs (9/23/2010 11:40:06 PM): anda rasa patutkah sy minum kopi sekrg?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:40:54 PM): uish, anda sepatutnya tidur terus. minum secawan susu hangat lagi baik
rs (9/23/2010 11:41:34 PM): erm
rs (9/23/2010 11:41:40 PM): ala
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:41:52 PM): bukankah esok anda perlu bekerja?
rs (9/23/2010 11:42:16 PM): hari hari pergi kerja
rs (9/23/2010 11:42:32 PM): sy lebih berminat kpd esok hari sy balik bangi
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:42:59 PM): sbb itu jugalah anda perlu tidur. biar segar sms memandu lewat ptg itu nnt.
rs (9/23/2010 11:43:14 PM): nak dgr gosipku?
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:43:18 PM): tidakla anda perlu berhenti di R&R utk merawat kantuk
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:43:48 PM): apa saja yg dpt menghibur hati laraku terhadap si jalur lebar ini...
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:43:55 PM): boleh saja
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:44:00 PM):
rs (9/23/2010 11:45:22 PM): kitakan kena g km** kan
rs (9/23/2010 11:45:43 PM): tp tdo kat hotel kntn
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:46:25 PM): laa...ade budget kah?
rs (9/23/2010 11:46:59 PM): hsnl dah arrange kan
rs (9/23/2010 11:46:59 PM): ada la kot
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:47:00 PM): mereka selalu kata rumah tamu km** always available
rs (9/23/2010 11:47:07 PM): tp bayar sendiri dulu
rs (9/23/2010 11:47:07 PM): later claim
rs (9/23/2010 11:47:17 PM): ada kolej2 lain kan
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:47:27 PM): ooo...tak cukuplah tu
rs (9/23/2010 11:47:31 PM): km** km* km*
rs (9/23/2010 11:47:39 PM): tuhle kami tersisih
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:47:52 PM): sape cepat die dptla kot
rs (9/23/2010 11:50:27 PM): hehehe
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:50:40 PM): hehe..selesala nampaknye penginapanmu nnt
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:52:35 PM):
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:52:49 PM): nampaknye sy perlu beransur dulu
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:53:04 PM): baru teringat yg ku perlu bgn bersahur nnt
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:53:25 PM): esokla saye melawat FB mu itu
aliflamwaunga (9/23/2010 11:53:34 PM): dan juga blog ku nnt

p/s: wahai rs, saya sudah 'berpindah'

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Novel kedua Khairi iaitu Yuda di Padang Maya tak best sebab seram sangat. Lebih baik buat cerita sedih macam ni.

Nota Penting: Kisah berlaku dalam tahun 2000.

Ain tersenyum puas memandang ’hasil buruan’nya pada petang itu. Tangan kanannya menjinjing tiga beg plastik; setiap satu untuk ibu, ayah dan adik lelakinya. Tiga lagi beg plastik di tangan kirinya adalah untuk nenek dan dua adik perempuannya. Tak sabar rasanya untuk melihat wajah mereka yang dirindui ketika Ain pulang untuk beraya di kampung nanti. Dua minggu lagi...

”Ain, awak dah dapat beli semua barang yang awak nak tu?”, tanya Zila yang menemaninya membeli-belah di Jalan T.A.R dan Jalan Masjid India. Mereka terpaksa berasak-asak di tengah-tengah lautan manusia yang barangkali juga ’memburu’ keperluan untuk raya yang bakal menjelang. Mereka meneruskan perjalanan ke arah Masjid Jamek untuk menunaikan solat Zohor. Leka membeli-belah sehingga tak sedar jam sudah menunjukkan pukul 3.25 petang.

”Alhamdulillah, Zila... Saya dapat cari dan beli semua barang untuk keluarga saya. Akhirnya dapat juga beli kurung biru comel untuk adik bongsu saya tu. Berebut-rebut juga dengan pelanggan lain tadi. Rasa puas dan berbaloi sangat shopping hari ni!”, sekali lagi Ain tersenyum. Kepuasan jelas terbayang di wajahnya.

”Eloklah tu. Saya dah tak sanggup tengok awak ikat perut sejak dua bulan lepas semata-mata nak kumpul duit buat beli semua barang-barang tu... Entah macam mana awak tahan makan mihun sup hari-hari,... tak boleh saya bayangkan?!”, rungut Zila, teman sebiliknya di asrama.

”Alaah, sekali sekala saya berkorban sikit untuk keluarga di kampung. Buat pertama kalinya dapat juga diorang merasa duit pinjaman PTPTN saya ni. Saya tahu semester pertama ni mesti banyak buku yang kita perlu beli dan macam-macam keperluan lagi nanti yang memerlukan duit. Sebab tu saya kena beringat dan berjimat juga walaupun ada duit pinjaman.”, jelas Ain.

”Iyelah, ’beringat’ sangatlah awak kat mihun sup cafe asrama kita tu...! Kitorang risau tau tengok awak. Buatnya nanti awak kena gastrik ke, ape ke...haa, siapa yang susah? ’Akak’ jugak tau...bukannya mereka dan keluarga mereka!”, Zila membuat gaya pengacara Melodi TV3, Ogy Ahmad Daud sambil melambai-lambai stokin kaki yang telah ditanggalkannya di tangga masjid.

Ain tergelak kecil. Dia tahu lawak Zila itu lawak bermesej. Satu ‘teguran’ serius. Tapi Ain nekad. Dia sudah membuat kira-kira akan perbelanjaannya sejak lebih dua bulan lepas. Baki akaunnya sekarang RM1,024.73. Jumlah yang ’selesa’ untuk dia ’survive’ hingga hujung semester dan barangkali sedikit simpanan untuk semester depan juga. Mujur juga sekarang ini bulan puasa. Dia tidak mahu meminta duit belanja hasil menoreh getah ayahnya. Dia juga tidak mahu lagi ibunya bersengkang mata untuk mengambil upah membuat kuih raya menjelang Aidilfitri nanti. Cukuplah ibu dan ayahnya bersusah payah menjaga adik-adiknya dan nenek yang sudah uzur.

Berdasarkan perbelanjaannya hari ini, jika dia tidak buat bajet dulu, belum tentu dia dapat simpan separuh daripada jumlah yang ada sekarang. Ain telah pastikan yang setiap hari belanja makannya takkan lebih daripada RM3. Mihun sup cafe hanya RM2.50 sebungkus. Sihat ape... lengkap dan berkhasiat lagi. Ada karbohidrat, protein daging ayam, zat sayur tauge, kubis, daun sup, siap sambal kicap lagi!. Itulah jawapan Ain setiap kali rakan sebilik menegur pilihan menu hariannya itu. Yang penting sekarang, matlamatnya telah tercapai!

”Ain, awak solat dulu sementara saya jaga barang-barang kita ni. Kena berjaga-jaga sikit walaupun sekarang ini bulan Ramadhan”, Zila mengingatkan Ain setelah mereka berwudhuk. Selain mereka berdua, hanya kelihatan dua orang perempuan di ruang solat wanita ketika itu.

Zila meletakkan tudung kepalanya yang telah dibuka di atas timbunan beg plastik barangan yang mereka beli. Ain pula meletakkan tudungnya melitupi beg galas masing-masing yang tersandar di dinding masjid. Sementara Ain bersolat, Zila duduk menunggu di sisi beg galas mereka.

Selesai solat Ain memberikan telekung kepada Zila yang kelihatan seperti termenung.

”Weh, cepat pi solat. Ni ha telekung.. Nanti terlambat pula nak beli juadah berbuka untuk Siti dan Lin,” kata Ain sambil mencuit bahu Zila. Mereka dah berjanji dengan dua orang rakan sebilik mereka untuk berbuka puasa bersama-sama sekembalinya mereka dari membeli-belah.

”Oh...,” jawab Zila seolah tersedar dari lamunan dan terus bersiap untuk menunaikan solat.

Ruang solat mereka kelihatan lengang. Dua orang perempuan tadi telah tidak kelihatan. Kedengaran sayup-sayup suara beberapa orang lelaki berbual di luar masjid diiringi bunyi trafik kenderaan yang tidak pernah putus di luar masjid Jamek. Ain mengangkat tudungnya dari atas beg galas mereka dan mula memakainya di hadapan cermin yang tersedia.

Tiba-tiba terdetik di hatinya suatu perasaan aneh. Perasaan seperti cuba menangkap nyamuk di udara dengan tangan tapi akhirnya genggaman kosong. Begitulah rasa hatinya. Ain menoleh ke arah beg-beg plastik barangan mereka yang ditutup dengan tudung Zila. Kemudian dia melihat ke beg galasnya sendiri. Ain meluru ke arah begnya dan pantas membuka zip utama lalu mencapai dompetnya.

Gusar hatinya ternyata bersebab. Kad ATMnya telah tiada. Handphone secondhand yang ayahnya bagi pun tiada. Wang RM50 yang diselit di belakang kad pengenalannya juga telah tiada. Nota yang tertulis nombor-nombor telefon penting antaranya juga telah lesap. Dengan kelam kabut Ain mengosongkan segala isi begnya ke atas karpet masjid. Saat itu, Zila yang baru selesai solat bertanya kepadanya,

“Eh, kenapa ni? Awak ada hilang barang ke?”

Ain memandang Zila tajam namun masih cuba mengawal perasaannya. Ain tunduk kembali mengadap barang-barangnya yang berselerak di atas karpet.

”Zila, ada sesiapa datang kat awak tak masa saya solat tadi?”, suara Ain bergetar.

”Masa awak solat tadi? Ermm...seingat saya takde siapa-siapa pun”, jawab Zila antara pasti tak pasti.

”Zila, kad ATM saya dah hilang. Duit 50 ringgit kat dalam dompet saya dengan handphone pun hilang sekali. Macam mana ni?”, Ain hampir menangis.

”La Ilaha illAllah... Betul ke ni Ain? Masa sampai masjid tadi awak ada check tak?”, terbit rasa bimbang di hati Zila kalau-kalau dia yang bersalah. Zila kemudian membuka begnya sendiri dan berasa hairan yang dompetnya pula masih ada. Tiada kelihatan langsung barang-barang Ain yang hilang. Ain pula memang yakin yang kesemua barang tersebut ada di dalam begnya semasa tiba di masjid tadi. Mereka menyelongkar pula plastik barang belian mereka.... Hampa.

”Kita pergi ke bank dan tanya tentang akaun awak, cepat!”, Zila memberi cadangan. Kebetulan cawangan bank akaunnya memang ada berdekatan dengan masjid Jamek.

Mereka meluru melintas jalan. Di hadapan bank, sepintas mereka memandang ke arah ATM. Tiada sesiapa di situ. Di dalam bank keadaan turut lengang. Maklumlah, sudah hampir selesai waktu pejabat. Mereka terus ke kaunter dan bertanyakan kepada seorang pegawai wanita di situ. Ain risau sampai tergagap-gagap maka Zila yang menerangkan segala-galanya. Pegawai bank tersebut meminta kad pengenalan dari Ain dan membuat semakan. Cemas Ain dan Zila apabila melihat wajahnya berkerut di hadapan skrin komputer.

”Adik...” pegawai tersebut memandang Ain. ”..5 minit lepas, ada pengeluaran wang seribu ringgit dari akaun adik.”

Hampir pengsan, Ain berpaut pada meja kaunter. Zila segera memegang dan cuba menenangkan Ain. Mereka berpelukan dan air mata deras mengalir dari kedua-dua sahabat itu.

TAMMAT

*Di sini saya tag Awie & Jie untuk join kontes (sungguh pun masa adalah amat kritikal, MAAF sesangat)

Man proposes, God disposes

Hence, I was unable to attend the wedding of

Nurwahida Mohd. Yaakub & husband, Mohd. Khairi Mahmud

in Dewan Serbaguna Taman Tasik Ampang Hilir

on 5^th December 2009

From the bottom of my heart,, i am so sorry my dear friend. I will make it up to you InsyaAllah.

I am glad you’ve both found each other.

May Allah bless you both blissful happiness here & hereafter.

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The famous Nonsense English Poem - Enjoy!~~

Jabberwocky

by Lewis Carroll

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

He took his vorpal sword in hand;
Long time the manxome foe he sought—
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.

And, as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And hast thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!"
He chortled in his joy.

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

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Cephalic

Come hither & sit by me,

For I need your presence

To tell me that you will always be there.

Come hither & hug me,

For I need your strength

To lift me up when I am down.

Come hither & snuggle down with me

For I need your warmth

To assure me that the fire is undying.

The irony is but to reveal the truth

The truth provides me with madness

And madness is ad nauseam…

UBI, KMM

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Yes, i prefer the complete versions...(i'm glad they listened)

Dear Reader’s Digest,

Thank you very much for the Introductory Volume of Select Editions. I appreciate the free gift that came along also .

However, I wish to NOT receive anymore of the Select Editions volumes as I found out that reading condensed versions of novels is not my preference.

I understand that Reader’s Digest requires subscribers of the Introductory Volume of Select Editions to just write if they wish to not further the subscription hence, my writing this note.

I hope my wish is acknowledged. Notwithstanding, I will still give supports to Reader’s Digest.

Thanks again.

Sincerely,

NAP

KMM,

MT, Melaka.

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Life is a stage?

I stumbled upon this when I was rummaging thru old newspaper articles that I had collected from 2006;

I kudnt get access to a scanner, wats written on the program pamphlet was this;

12 Dayung Petani,
Dats wat we’l watch in a mo’
Gemalai musik irama Melayu
I haven’t listen to such things for a long time.
Puas ku mengingat, ku fikir-fikir
Wat kind of memory wud revive such feelings?
Akhirnya ku sedar, ku akui
I have long gone miss dis!

U know they always play related background music to entertain us while waiting… Dat sorta trigger sumthin most of the time…

Well, I don’t go to watch theater that much.

I think during IIUM I went to 3 shows by The Shakespearean Theater Club (I tink dats wat they call themselves), a Mona Fandey mock trial (if im not mistaken I went 2 watch it twice!), a poignant dialogues by my coursemates right before the National Laureate, A. Samad Said made appearance (kud it b during 1 of IIUM Open Day/Night events?) & an Islamic musical theater abt death by outside performers (the main singer was Sheqal). These were the ones opened to the public as well as IIUans.

Other mini performances/ plays were of course by my coursemates albeit for lesson’s purpose. Nonetheless, they were quite entertaining.

That 12 Dayung Petani was a bangsawan theater, the works of & directed by Morad B. Ibrahim, performed on 29 January 2005 in Tmn Budaya Neg. Kedah. I went there wit a grp of KPLI stdnts.

Our Kelab Budaya lecturer (who’s also our class drama lecturer) thought dat we need some exposure to bangsawan theater as we need to perform one for our year-end assessment. We did Puteri Gunung Ledang (duh..). The training sessions; gosh, twas sumthing dat I wudnt want 2 relive. I kudnt count how many trainings we had & I remember once I didn’t have a single drop of water down my throat from early morn til 5 pm..!? I almost kudnt walk. Wat am I trying 2 say here? …

Well, anyway, of course something good came out of it. The scriptwriting, editing, characterization, props, crazy hour of trainings, money, conflicts, etc. argh… the experience was worth it & i really appreciate the support & cooperation given. THANK YOU my KPLI 2005 BI Buddies! THANK YOU Ms. Haiyon! :)

In 2006; watched Teater Randai in Tmn Budaya Neg. Sembilan as among chaperons of Kelab Budaya KMM (if i rajin i'l post d video here later :p).

In 2007; watched Teater Anak Bulan di Kampung Wak Hassan in Melaka (I kudnt remember d exact place. Definitely not in M. Tnh. It was on a sepak takraw court amidst kampong houses). Written by Alfian Sa’at, performed by Gene Sha Rudyn. Went wit my colleagues, juz for phun & giving supports of course.

In 2008; most likely…, living it! :p

I tink I juz watched Traditional dance sequence in Taman Mini Malaysia, Melaka wit my frens, wic was quite a long time ago.

p/s: coincidentally Ms. AMZ told me juz now dat there’l b Tarian Mak Yong in Tmn Budaya Melaka (i dont even know where dat is) soon.

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Things that i wanted to say...but i didnt (2)

What can i say? i couldnt say what i had wanted to say i have a lot to say actually i had tried to program my mind on what to say but it didnt work out that way i felt like kicking myself on my way back that day realizing i didnt say what i had wanted to say & arrived home feeling beaten and called it a day What can i say?

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